rosamondmazzini79@hotmail.com says: (4:00:59 PM)

hey there…

Leora says: (4:01:08 PM)

who are you?

rosamondmazzini79@hotmail.com says: (4:01:18 PM)

well, before i tell you exactly who I am..I want to show you, will u watch my cam show?? I think you’ll be very surprised at what your about to see lol

Leora says: (4:01:38 PM)

I do not think I will be surprised.

rosamondmazzini79@hotmail.com says: (4:01:49 PM)

Yay someone to talk to !! how are u?   I found your name in the msn online members search

Leora says: (4:01:54 PM)

Unless it involves you playing the ukulele

Leora says: (4:02:03 PM)

Do you play the ukulele?

rosamondmazzini79@hotmail.com says: (4:02:05 PM)

my roomates just stepped out I only have a little while alone…  are u alone too?  we should cam2cam

Leora says: (4:02:34 PM)

If you’re into straight chicks wearing PacMan hoodies, I’m game.

rosamondmazzini79@hotmail.com says: (4:02:45 PM)

K here’s the link to my cam it’s http://www.freakyloving.com/abm6 go there and you should see me, just click the join free tab on top of the page, I use this site cause you can’t record it like on here — my dad would kill me if he found out I was doing this kinky stuff on his computer lol

Leora says: (4:02:45 PM)

DO YOU PLAY THE UKELELE, MY ROBOT FRIEND?

rosamondmazzini79@hotmail.com says: (4:02:50 PM)

a what?

Leora says: (4:02:55 PM)

UKULELE

rosamondmazzini79@hotmail.com says: (4:03:05 PM)

LOL aw you’re cute.. well can u see my cam it was giving me trouble earlier but it looks ok now? oh I hope u dont mind chatting with a kinky girl!

Leora says: (4:03:27 PM)

I like dudes.

rosamondmazzini79@hotmail.com says: (4:03:37 PM)

yeah i’m horny lolz! u? Wait you’re not a stalker are u?? LOL

Leora says: (4:04:08 PM)

No.  But I’m curious to see how far your robot abilities will take this conversation.

rosamondmazzini79@hotmail.com says: (4:04:19 PM)

bot? like a robot? lol

Leora says: (4:04:24 PM)

By the way, roboskank, I am female.

Leora says: (4:04:29 PM)

Yes yes. A robot LOL.

rosamondmazzini79@hotmail.com says: (4:04:34 PM)

Mhhm u never know lol I have to make sure! babe u sound confident I like that .. maybe we can trade phone numbers after we chat on cam ?  I’d love to…

Leora says: (4:04:42 PM)

I am a woman.

rosamondmazzini79@hotmail.com says: (4:04:53 PM)

….nice well u can also just watch me if u want….it’s up to u  oh babe what’s your favorite color?

Leora says: (4:04:58 PM)

Green.

rosamondmazzini79@hotmail.com says: (4:05:09 PM)

make sure u fill out your correct b-day k? cause they won’t let u in if you can’t verify age  I had to use my debit card to verify age but they don’t charge, it’s just to make sure you’re not a kid

Leora says: (4:05:21 PM)

You are the shittiest robot ever.

rosamondmazzini79@hotmail.com says: (4:05:27 PM)

what’s wrong?

Leora says: (4:05:38 PM)

You can’t play the ukulele. That’s what’s wrong.

rosamondmazzini79@hotmail.com says: (4:05:50 PM)

I’m gonna turn off Messenger so my cam doesn’t run slow….plus I really want u to watch me, I’m getting so turned on it’s driving me crazy

Leora says: (4:06:03 PM)

Oh fancy that.

Leora says: (4:06:10 PM)

I guess that’s your last line, right?

rosamondmazzini79@hotmail.com says: (4:06:14 PM)

are u in babe??  Let me know when you see me, I’ll be in my cam chat, we’ll keep talking in there  I just put on those panties for u ! hurry up ! if u need the link again it’s http://www.freakyloving.com/abwz , I’m in my private chat so if u see another cam just login and let me know when you’re in, I’ll guide you to my cam room

Leora says: (4:06:28 PM)

No.

rosamondmazzini79@hotmail.com says: (4:06:32 PM)

k

Or maybe it is.  Cliche preamble: “Oh my; I sure have gone a long time without updating this blog”.

See, I have been working full-time while attending UBC full time.  All work and more work = no time for leisurely blogging about extracurricular, non-academically focused topics.

I have started another blog, Really Awesome Blog Comments, which is sporadically updated as I come across real gems in the comment sections of the blogs or news story that I read regularly.

Otherwise, maybe I should write in this more.

Oh yeah.  You know what’s great about being a sociology major who feels like she no longer has a family (though does have individual associations with people of whom she is biologically related)?  Well, sociological theories are a great source of enlightenment, and almost cheer me up when I am on the verge of being awash with angsty emotions.   For example,  re-framing “family” as merely a social construct makes the realization that I am less a part of what I thought was my family than I ever was, while non-biological people I have never met have replaced me, seem much less painful.  That statement may seem harsh, but I’d rather feel enlightened making sense of changes in family structures than feel bitter about those changes.

Complimenting family as a social construct is the observation of how relationships exist amongst people with independent (as opposed to interdependent) self concepts. At 4:09 am, I am a bit too tired to go into detail, and risk plagiarizing a really great paper, so you can read it here, courtesy of the good old University of British Columbia.

Raymond Carver, an author whose work I am not too fond of, does a nice job at illustrating the emotional strain between wanting to believe that love is real and eternal, while facing the reality of knowing how transactional relationships really are:

“You’ve both been married before, just like us. And you probably loved other people before that too, even. Terri and I have been together five years, been married for four. And the terrible thing, the terrible thing is, but the good thing too, the saving grace, you might say, is that if something happened to one of us—excuse me for saying this—but if something happened to one of us tomorrow, I think the other one, the other person, would grieve for a while, you know, but then the surviving party would go out and love again, and have someone else soon enough. All this, all of this love, we’re talking about, it would be just a memory.” (Carver, 1981 — “What we talk about when we talk about love”)

The above passage is referring to romantic relationships, but it can be applied to any type of relationship. I love my brothers; I love my mom; I love my late father, but we are not a family anymore.  Once we were a family, but we no longer are (unless you want to get all Slaughterhouse Five on the linearity of our lifetimes).  Yeah, it’s painful to think about sometimes, but at least I have silly abstract theories to comfort myself with, right?

Goodnight. Good morning.